Lost and found

The Heart, mind, body and soul ached. They ached and ached for the longest time known. What do you do when your very core is disturbed – you lose yourself. The mind meanders with an aimless search for meaning. A sense of desperation and restlessness follow suit, making you a fat blown-up balloon, with all the naivety and charm lost. The eyes which once glittered no longer shone. Relationships are a gamble; you don’t always get them right. A silent suffering, with a yearning to be loved; to flaunt love; to give love. What you find attractive as a younger you, may not be the right thing at all – for it doesn’t come with a lot of experiential backing. Falling for the superficial and by the time you realize that that wasn’t it, you’ve already been sucked in too deep like quicksand.

Time did move on; it wasn’t entirely bad after all. However, there was always a vacuum, a hollow. An echo from the inside, with every cell in the body, mind and soul seeking for love. For when you are in love, it sets you free, if you aren’t, then that is so not love. Love doesn’t come with a package of fear or possessiveness.

Could we go back in time and change the beginning – ah, perhaps, if only we could! So, who else can you go to other than the one and only Krishna? Draupadi hit the SOS bell in a state of helplessness, Krishna heard her quickly and came out to her rescue. After all, she was never to be blamed for the fault of her 5 valorous husbands – her chastity being stripped apart in public. Our man Krishna descended right there, just in time. Time is a relative term – what seems like fractions of seconds in Mahabharata would seem like a decade in real life.

Krishna has thus been a constant, there has been an undying faith and romance in the relationship shared with the Lord Himself. Things changed, of course there was sadness when death came by, right in the front. Lamenting the loss of a once loved one, hits deep too – The voice, the presence, the conversations, the music, the food and all the experience in itself. The person who was once breathing right next to you is no longer there.

The present looks nothing like the past. Reason – you cannot always sit there with lack of experience. You don’t have a choice, because the wolves from the world do teach you things, whether you like it or not. Learning gets accelerated. At least there is a sense of discrimination between the right and the wrong. If not knowledge on all things right, you at least learn what not to, again. That’s the blessing Krishna showered upon. This then percolated and trickled down in drops across the nuclear family.

The lost self thus went in the pursuit of happiness, seeking permanence, love and affection. You don’t always catch the good things that are laid right before you, the first time. This time, slightly different from a decade ago, yes worldly experience had a huge bearing on the decision-making process. Once bitten, twice shy, they say. For love to naturally happen to you, without any preconceived notions and conditions, you’ll need to be mentally prepared to receive love. Until such time, you’re going to be blinded by barriers that your mind makes up.

This time, Krishna and Prathiyangira Amman team up to rescue. Prayers have this beautiful power of keeping you wrapped in faith. The signs of the Universe are to not be ignored. Good things do take time, and changes don’t happen overnight. They are a culmination of the family itself coming together, a happy synthesis – after all, a family that prays together, stays together.

So, thanks to Instagram, a place where what was lost was found. The Universe puts you back in the path, only when you are ready. Until then, you’d be nowhere near your destination – even if you see the sign board right there – oblivion envelops the ventilation of your heart and mind.

With the body, mind and soul being thus aligned, you’d only find your way back to where you belonged, originally. Where you were once growing up, a place that was abandoned abruptly. The innocence is returned with worldly acumen. With lost connections being reestablished, joy knowing no bounds and with love letting you free, uncaged, untamed. The Gods put back the jigsaw puzzle in the right spot. Every day thus becomes a rediscovery of a twin soul flame, with stunning similarities and common interests. The heart is grateful and knows not how to whine anymore. Feeling full with love, and knowing that you are enough. The search stops, as you have arrived at the destination, thus. The journey of happiness is yet to begin, regardless, there’s a certain sense of undeterred faith, hope and clarity. Believe in the power of prayers, but the effort should be both ways – For God helps, those who help themselves.

Image Caption: Eternal beauty of Kochi - Fondness.