The Heart, mind, body and soul ached. They ached and ached for the longest time known. What do you do when your very core is disturbed – you lose yourself. The mind meanders with an aimless search for meaning. A sense of desperation and restlessness follow suit, making you a fat blown-up balloon, with all the naivety and charm lost. The eyes which once glittered no longer shone. Relationships are a gamble; you don’t always get them right. A silent suffering, with a yearning to be loved; to flaunt love; to give love. What you find attractive as a younger you, may not be the right thing at all – for it doesn’t come with a lot of experiential backing. Falling for the superficial and by the time you realize that that wasn’t it, you’ve already been sucked in too deep like quicksand.
Time did
move on; it wasn’t entirely bad after all. However, there was always a vacuum,
a hollow. An echo from the inside, with every cell in the body, mind and soul
seeking for love. For when you are in love, it sets you free, if you aren’t,
then that is so not love. Love doesn’t come with a package of fear or possessiveness.
Could we go
back in time and change the beginning – ah, perhaps, if only we could! So, who
else can you go to other than the one and only Krishna? Draupadi hit the SOS
bell in a state of helplessness, Krishna heard her quickly and came out to her
rescue. After all, she was never to be blamed for the fault of her 5 valorous
husbands – her chastity being stripped apart in public. Our man Krishna descended
right there, just in time. Time is a relative term – what seems like fractions
of seconds in Mahabharata would seem like a decade in real life.
Krishna has
thus been a constant, there has been an undying faith and romance in the
relationship shared with the Lord Himself. Things changed, of course there was sadness when death came by, right in the front. Lamenting the loss of a once loved
one, hits deep too – The voice, the presence, the conversations, the music, the
food and all the experience in itself. The person who was once breathing right
next to you is no longer there.
The present
looks nothing like the past. Reason – you cannot always sit there with lack of
experience. You don’t have a choice, because the wolves from the world do teach
you things, whether you like it or not. Learning gets accelerated. At least there is a sense of
discrimination between the right and the wrong. If not knowledge on all things
right, you at least learn what not to, again. That’s the blessing Krishna
showered upon. This then percolated and trickled down in drops across the nuclear
family.
The lost
self thus went in the pursuit of happiness, seeking permanence, love and
affection. You don’t always catch the good things that are laid right before
you, the first time. This time, slightly different from a decade ago, yes
worldly experience had a huge bearing on the decision-making process. Once
bitten, twice shy, they say. For love to naturally happen to you, without any preconceived
notions and conditions, you’ll need to be mentally prepared to receive love.
Until such time, you’re going to be blinded by barriers that your mind makes
up.
This time,
Krishna and Prathiyangira Amman team up to rescue. Prayers have this beautiful
power of keeping you wrapped in faith. The signs of the Universe are to not be
ignored. Good things do take time, and changes don’t happen overnight. They are
a culmination of the family itself coming together, a happy synthesis – after
all, a family that prays together, stays together.
So, thanks
to Instagram, a place where what was lost was found. The Universe puts you back
in the path, only when you are ready. Until then, you’d be nowhere near your
destination – even if you see the sign board right there – oblivion envelops
the ventilation of your heart and mind.
With the
body, mind and soul being thus aligned, you’d only find your way back to where
you belonged, originally. Where you were once growing up, a place that was
abandoned abruptly. The innocence is returned with worldly acumen. With lost
connections being reestablished, joy knowing no bounds and with love letting
you free, uncaged, untamed. The Gods put back the jigsaw puzzle in the right
spot. Every day thus becomes a rediscovery of a twin soul flame, with stunning
similarities and common interests. The heart is grateful and knows not how to whine
anymore. Feeling full with love, and knowing that you are enough. The search
stops, as you have arrived at the destination, thus. The journey of happiness
is yet to begin, regardless, there’s a certain sense of undeterred faith, hope and
clarity. Believe in the power of prayers, but the effort should be both ways –
For God helps, those who help themselves.
Image Caption: Eternal beauty of Kochi - Fondness.
